There were times where I cried and yelled of so much pain cancer caused. I didn’t know what to do more about. After several high doses of morphine doctors and I were thinking that the end is coming close. Finally one day I´ve got all my power together and was able to start a focused meditation. It did carry me away from all this pain and what was in the outside world happening with my body. A fire of renewal run through me, every cell of my body got lightened up, and especially my mind was newly born. There in this few minutes of deep meditation and contemplation, I knew that nothing was decided yet and that my destiny got just a new direction of a very positive change. In this minutes of deep meditation, serious healing took place!!!
When we get the diagnosis cancer, we are thrown to the ground. The world around us is falling apart. It´s such a slap in the face and we are asking ourselves “why me”? But the good news is —WOW— Life is forcing us to confront ourselves with death, to think about deeper why we are here on earth and to find out what is the purpose of our existence here in this world. What is my personal life task in all of this?
We get beaten by all those questions which are falling over us like a waterfall. And guess what. Mostly for the first time we need to think about our own lives. There is no more any running away from what is your reality right now with that diagnosis. —Again WOW— People start to read books with spiritual backgrounds, beginning to change their diet, going to the psychologist to start to look into their lives what happened to them psychologically through the whole life. Such serious diagnoses take many new ways.
Especially confrontation with death is the big deal here. — Again WOW— I am not forever alive —WOW— I knew somehow in my mind, but did I ever realize it or even thought one day about that fact? How am I now going to handle this fact that I and every human being is dying one day? —WOW— Still such a taboo topic in our society.